Hana: Deja vu

Deja vu

Saw him again.

I swear that I saw

That same smile that he smiled,

That same smile that he smiled that night.

I swear to God, it hasn't changed.

Blink my eyes,

One, two seconds...

That smile again...

 

Getting sad again.

I swear that I can see

Those long slender fingers,

Those long slender fingers that feel so good intertwined with mine.

I swear to God, they haven't changed.

Blink my eyes,

One, two, three seconds...

Those hands again...

 

Getting happy again.

I swear that I can see

Those soft, full lips,

Those soft, full lips that were placed so gently onto mine.

I swear to God, they look just as kissable.

Blink my eyes,

One, two, three, four seconds...

Those lips again...

 

Walking away again.

I swear that I can see

Him turning around now.

Turning around, finally noticing my existence.

I swear to God, he hasn't changed.

Close my eyes,

One, two, three, four, five seconds...

Why isn't he gone yet?

 

Getting angry again.

I swear that I can see

A sad look in his eyes.

A sad look in his eyes that I know he's faking.

I swear to God, he's still an idiot.

Look away,

One, two, three, four, five, six seconds...

Can he stop being stupid?

 

Getting tricked again.

I swear that I can see

That tempting smile of his.

That tempting smile of his that's trying to deceive me.

I swear to God, he's still a jerk.

Distracting myself,

One, two, three, four, five, six, seven seconds...

Stop!

 

Surrendering again.

I swear that I can see

A twinkle in his eyes.

A twinkle in his eyes that makes me want him.

I swear to God, he's still gorgeous.

Pretending not to notice,

One, two, three, four, five, six, seven, eight seconds...

Oh no...

 

Getting lovesick again.

I swear that I can see

The dirty thoughts in his mind.

The dirty thoughts in his mind that made my cheeks flush.

I swear to God, he's still perverse.

Staring at the ground,

One, two, three, four, five, six, seven, eight, nine seconds...

Damn you...

 

Got fooled again.

I swear I just saw

That same horrid girl.

That same horrid girl that he left me for.

I swear to God, I'm such an idiot.

Crying as I leave,

One, two, three, four, five, six, seven, eight, nine, ten seconds...

 

Seeing her was like deja vu.